Not my forte'...

Dying to self is one of my 'issues'. For Lent I gave up bread, or yeast products to be exact. Ash Wednesday came and went, before I realized that I'd eaten a yummy biscuit and a half covered in gravy with my birthday meal which my wonderful sister-n-law brought over. It only got worse when I picked up the nephew from school on Friday and his request was a trip to SUBWAY! But, I got wheat bread, Lord! Then, there was that ooey, gooey roll with the quilt show meal. Sunday lunch seemed impossible...a bbq on a bun w/o the bun??!!! As you can see, I gave smooth up. Then, I got a spankin' from God...

I cannot describe it, but I was met with problems from every turn. From spranging my ankle to upsetting Kent, royally. I hate it when 'the paddle' is my husband. Anyway...I was rebuking the enemy left and right, THEN came Oswald's devo. Why couldn't it have came before I slept on the LOVE SEAT for half the night.

"Jesus said unto him the third time, Lovest thou Me?" John 21:17

'Have you felt the hurt of the Lord to the uncovered quick, the place where the real sensitiveness of your life is lodged? The devil never hurts there, neither sin nor human affection hurts there, nothing goes through to that place but the word of God. "Peter was grieved because Jesus said unto him the third time. . ."...The Lord's questions always reveal me to myself....The patient directness and skill of Jesus Christ with Peter! Our Lord never asks questions until the right time. Rarely, but probably once, He will get us into a corner where He will hurt us with His undeviating questions, and we will realize that we do love Him far more deeply than any profession can ever show.' (My Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers)

Lotz of times it is Satan, but not this time. It wasn't Satan or Kent! It was the Lord! And lately I've been asking Him to show me the consequences that connect to my sins. Why am I surprised when He does? He sure did this time...on the love seat that night and He confirmed it in that devo on Monday morning. Ouch, that smarted! Why does the Lord have to tell me things over and over before I'll listen? Ever hearing but rarely listening! Jesus told Peter that he was going to blow it before he actually blew it. Jesus gave him the 'look' and he still didn't stop it. Peter denied even knowing Christ. I denied my committment to Him. And I now have a healthy dose of fear in relation to yeast, just kidding, in relation to disobeying God!!!