Dad, Kaden and Me
My birth'day' turned into a birth'weekend'. I was born on my dad's birthday (the 24th) and Kaden was born in February, too. Kaden, my nephew, is one of the delights of my mushy heart. It was necessary to have a seperate birthday party this year with him because of blended family issues. As a matter of fact, it was a feat to have both my mom and my dad at my birthday party because of divorce drama. It's not my fault! It's not Kaden's fault! And yet we are affected. I could rant, but it won't help. Been there, done that and bought the whole outfit. 
So here I am on the birth'week' and now I can exhale. I exhale because no one said anything too terribly hurtful and everyone got along. I exhale because Kaden knows how much he is loved...due in part from the screams of support launched during the b-ball game, the birthday gifts to die for, the quality time in the swimming pool at the hotel, snuggles in wee hours of the morning and the effort to go to church as a family. We're blessed!
4 comments:
It's part of life and you handle it well! Kaden is so fortunate to have you for a role model...
Love you...Next week! (pray that there are more leaders present!!)
and....by the way...you look like your dad!
I know you've heard this commercial a thousand times, "What's in your wallet?"
Now, I have a new slogan...What's in your attic? What's in my attic...is THE more appropriate question! For eleven years, a keepsake chest has been nestled away in my attic. The owner? The Ex! Now ex-stuff has really never affected me much, I promise! But, the Lord thought I needed to learn a lesson this time. During my Sunday afternoon nap, hubby and step-daughter discussed that hidden treasure in the attic and un-nestled it to take home to Mom. Not a big deal~I was just left out because I was out of sight~out of mind. No one told me about it and no one thought for a sec that I'd be taken back a bit. The point being...my feelings were effected and I didn't really know why I felt hurt.
Funny how something eleven years ago has potential to haunt ya! I've boasted that the Ex and I have and are always gonna have a good relationship for step-daughter's sake. To satan, them thare are fightin' words and he is gonna test my sincerity, I suppose. But, this time it was my fault, not satans.
It was something that happened two weeks ago that was haunting me. I sinned! I didn't take into consideration my step-father's feelings in regards to my mom and dad attending the birthday plans...
"...it was a feat to have both my mom and my dad at my birthday party because of divorce drama. It's not my fault!" When I wrote that, I actually did notice all the 'my's' and it was a clue that I was in the flesh, but I didn't care and didn't repent. But, I do now! Through the attic episode, God put me in a similar situation so that I would know exactly how it felt to be seemingly deceived and left out without any consideration of my feelings.
Boom-bada-bang~I don't like being measured by the same stick! (Matthew 7:2)
It's still not my fault. And it's not Shea's fault, either. Bless Kent's heart~he was a deer caught in the headlights. And bless Jack, Lord. Let him find it in his heart to forgive me and may our friendship be restored.
Sooo a little note, when you pray for Godly sorrow over the sin you see in your life, and even the sin you don't see, then hold on cuz He will show ya. And it may be two-weeks old or longer. Lord, let us have immediate conviction and the humility to swallow our pride and ask for forgiveness from You and others.
Thanks blogging friends for letting me get this junk off my chest (no pun intended)...I have repented and I have called my step-dad and I am feeling better. Luvs & hugs!
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